2020 Whats Up!!!

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I must say this  year has been amazing!! Yes, amazing. According to Webster amazing is defined as: causing a strong emotional reaction because of unexpectedness.

 Synonyms for amazing
I'm challenged to reconsider my expectations. 
I'm reminded that I am not in control. 
I am encouraged to know that change will happen. It may not be today but it will. 

So to that I guess I am trying to find peace and remind myself complaining about 2020 is not going to help myelf or anyone around me. 

2020 Whats up: 
For whatever lies ahead I choose to move forward with grace, character, compassion, and patience. 


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